It ain’t easy, but I love it.
When deployments and trainings roll around I find myself tempted to go the “woe is me” route and be depressed. That’s when I pick my ugly crying self up, put my big girl panties on and start looking forward to the next homecoming. The amount of time it takes to get from depressed to being a big girl varies depending on the circumstances, however, the steps I take to get there usually remain the same and go a little something like this…
- Step 1 – Ugly Cry until I can ugly cry no more.
- Step 2 – Go for a drive with the windows down, sunroof open (weather permitting), and Cee Lo blaring (or current happy music of choice).
- Step 3 – Start making lists of things I need to do before he comes home.
- Step 4 – Exercise.
- Step 5 – Watch really bad reality television.
When you have 15 days out of 365 to spend with them, you soak in every little moment. When your time together is so limited, life becomes more precious and you enjoy one another that much more. When your family is all together again the little things no longer bother you and your heart finally feels complete.
I admit that it’s incredibly painful to watch my Husband tell our 3 year old daughter he has to leave for a little while, It’s a pain in the butt to move as often as we do, and family planning is a bit trying, among other things. But for each hardship there is an equal or greater benefit. For instance our Daughter tells everyone her Daddy is a Super Hero who is away helping people with a huge smile of pride on her face, we’ve lived in three really neat places over the past 6 years, and we’ve become friends with some pretty wonderful people.
So while I may fantasize about my Husband working a 9-5 job and being home on weekends, I accept that our reality is different and I wouldn’t trade it for the world.